Thoughts while Traveling
9.28.2004
Jesus, you are the sun on my horizon
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After reading my sister's blog today, I was forced to go back and look at my own entries. They all the sound the same. Well, the last few, anyways. When I have taken a moment to articulate my thoughts...they have all been so...desperate. When comes the point when I stop being desperate and actually start "abiding"? I am so blessed. My God has always come through, always exceeded my desires. Boy, has He done it this time. Holy...Lord! I must, must, must stay on my knees and not allow the morsels of defeat that fly around my head all day to seep into my soul. Why am I here? This season of my (our) life is all about preparation, and the growing pains are...painful (imagine that). Why, though? Why not run back to a "comfortable" life? Well, besides the fact that I, ummm, hated that life, I am being prepared to, I don't know exactly. But whatever and wherever it is, I will be a deeper, more educated, disciplined, and healed person, ready to be of service to my King. Anyways, it's where I am...still desperate, yet...abiding.
Jesus, you are the sun on my horizon.
After reading my sister's blog today, I was forced to go back and look at my own entries. They all the sound the same. Well, the last few, anyways. When I have taken a moment to articulate my thoughts...they have all been so...desperate. When comes the point when I stop being desperate and actually start "abiding"? I am so blessed. My God has always come through, always exceeded my desires. Boy, has He done it this time. Holy...Lord! I must, must, must stay on my knees and not allow the morsels of defeat that fly around my head all day to seep into my soul. Why am I here? This season of my (our) life is all about preparation, and the growing pains are...painful (imagine that). Why, though? Why not run back to a "comfortable" life? Well, besides the fact that I, ummm, hated that life, I am being prepared to, I don't know exactly. But whatever and wherever it is, I will be a deeper, more educated, disciplined, and healed person, ready to be of service to my King. Anyways, it's where I am...still desperate, yet...abiding.
Jesus, you are the sun on my horizon.
2 Comments:
sorry. deleted that entry. long story.
i'm not quite sure how to abide. that should be something they start teaching in sunday school when you're young. well maybe it's just something you have to figure out how to do on your own.
and you probably have to re-learn it several times during the course of your life. when circumstances and routines and all things stable in your life suddenly change or become unstable, it takes a lot more effort to abide in the Lord's love, grace and provision...although it never changes. we're the ones who can't seem to get our act together.
anyway, thanks for writing that. i needed to think about it.
I think it is inherently inside of us, the abilty to "abide"...comes with the territory of being made in the image of God. If we are made in His very own image, why wouldn't He give us that ability to walk peacefully hand in hand with Him? It's us that try and break free of that act of love, when He keeps trying to gently hold our hands...I miss you, Sarah. Hope your new job is going ok.
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